Just Let Them…

I wish I could say that I'm 100% healed and that life is grand. I can't, and it's not. Don't get me wrong, I do have a life filled with so many blessings but oftentimes I get thrown a curveball, out of left field, on a windy day by those that I would give anything for.

Unfortunately, I have come to the frustrating realization that my trauma still affects me today and that I will forever be a work in progress. I am healing and I am committed to continued healing. It does, and it has become easier; but I could not have done it alone. Some days are harder than others. I have been left with questions that will never be answered. I am S-L-O-W-L-Y learning to accept that no answer, is an answer. I am learning that I am kind, caring, compassionate, and loving. I'm 100% positive that I am NOT the person that I was made to believe I was throughout my abuse. I am trying to learn that sometimes you just have to let people go and be who they are, even though it hurts. Those that I love with every ounce of my being, have hurt me the most. I truly forgive them, I love them, and I am (and always will be) here... when they are ready. Even though my love for them is unending, I am beginning to believe that now it's time to... JUST LET THEM...

Just Let Them


If they want to choose something or someone over you, LET THEM.
If they want to go weeks (months or years) without talking to you, LET THEM.
If they are okay with never seeing you, LET THEM.
If they are okay with always putting themselves first, LET THEM.
If they are always showing you who they are and not what you perceived them to be, LET THEM.
If they want to follow the crowd, LET THEM.
If they want to judge or misunderstand you, LET THEM.
If they act like they can live without you, LET THEM.
If they want to walk out of your life and leave, hold the door open, AND LET THEM.

Let them lose you.

You were never theirs, because you were always your own.

So let them.

LET THEM show you who they truly are, not tell you.
LET THEM prove how worthy they are of your time.
LET THEM make the necessary steps to be a part of your life.
LET THEM earn your forgiveness.
LET THEM call you to talk about ordinary things.
LET THEM take you out on a Thursday.
LET THEM talk about anything and everything just because it's you they are talking to.
LET THEM have a safe place in you.
LET THEM see the heart in you that didn't harden.

Let THEM love YOU.

                                                                                                                                       Author: Cassie Phillips

I have been seeing my domestic violence counselor weekly since May of 2016. I especially credit my counselor (through LSS Choices) for equipping me with the tools and resources that I needed to find my way out of the vile and abusive marriage that I had lost myself in. My counselor still provides support through therapy, E.M.D.R. (Eye Movement Desensitization Reprocessing), and well beyond. In addition to my counselor, I have been blessed with numerous other professionals who have all played a significant role in this journey that I'm on. The countless hours they have listened to me, the tears that have been shed, the anxiety, the panic attacks, the nightmares, the list goes on... I am forever grateful for their kindness, understanding, words of encouragement, compassion, for allowing me to be REAL and talk freely in a SAFE place, and for the TRUE SELFLESSNESS that lead them into a career of helping others. 

I would be completely remiss to not include my support system. Some of the people that have supported me probably don't even realize the impact that they have made on my life. I am thankful, and I have so much to be thankful for even when things aren't going how I had hoped, I can still find something to be thankful for. I have the most GENUINE, LOVING, COMPASSIONATE, UNDERSTANDING, EMPATHETIC, KIND-HEARTED, SINCERE, HONEST, GIVING, GENTLE, FORGIVING, and ACCEPTING people in my corner. They cheer me on, they encourage me, they help redirect me when things become muddy and unclear. THEY LOVE ME without conditions or judgment. 

Where everything once was so incredibly bleak, I am now dreaming again of a bright, exciting, and beautiful future. I am looking toward the days and years ahead. I am strong, resilient, and hopeful.